This is why we can’t have nice things

I love peanut butter.

I just wanted to say that before I went off on it.

I always find it on my pants. Sometimes my shirts, but usually my pants. It’s become an accessory several times a week. I don’t own that many pairs of jeans, mostly because I’m losing weight so I don’t want to stock up on pants that won’t fit me for long.

Sometimes I know the peanut butter is there because toddler man mouths my leg after eating some. Sometimes I find it later, I look down and there it is, about the height of the kitchen table because someone decided peanut butter makes excellent paint (and it kind of does).

It’s kind of gotten to the point where I’m not so careful when I eat anymore. The food on the kitchen floor doesn’t always come from the toddler in the room, why should it? I have to clean it up no matter who makes the mess and there’s always going to be something to clean up…so why try so hard?

Toddlers may be messy – but they sure are fun. So for now I’ll deal with the peanut butter and all the other little messes and I’ll try to be more put together and clean when I’m older.


Ring in the New Year – 2018

I’ve been giving my goals some thought (some less than others) but here they are.  I’m also going to tape them to my mirror so I remember what goals I set.  Here we go:

2018 Resolutions

  1. Query 5 agents by August
    1. Finish the 1st draft with necessary edits
    2. Have 3 BETA readers (at least)
    3. Research agents
    4. Write and polish query letter
    5. Send
  2. Reach goal weight by August 31st by cutting back sugar and working out more.
  3. Make my marriage a priority by having at least 12 dates with my hubs and holding family counsels.
  4. Go to the temple at least twice (DC will be closing in March until 2020 – just thought I’d explain the low number).
  5. Service – do one service activity a month.
  6. MOVE!
  7. Read 25 books.  At least two need to be on writing and three be church books.
  8. Mommy/Son dates – Take time for just Nicky and me by going on at least 6 outings together.

As you can see – I’m making dating my family a big priority this year – someone’s desperate… I’m excited and nervous about my goals – mainly the writing one.  I realized a few weeks ago that I hold back because I get anxiety about the whole submission process.  I figure if I make it a goal then my pride and stubbornness will overpower the anxiety and I’ll finally take the next steps.  We’ll see.  An unwritten goal is to blog and journal more – so hopefully you’ll hear from me more (if that’s what you want).


As I posted yesterday – I thought I had a draft of my weekly new things. This is by a complete list, looks like I stopped adding after about three months or so but you get the idea.

So I’ve fallen behind reporting on my weekly “projects” which I have dubbed Pinterest projects because honestly 99% of them will be attempts to do things I saw on Pinterest.

So here’s what I’ve tried and how they turned out.

1) Homemade paint.  Recipe found HERE.  This….did not work for me.  I may try it again some time but it came out too thick to actually be used as paint.

2) Family Home Evening on Prayer – I just kind of made this one up.  I have pictures to go with all the answers to the questions.

3) Preschool Calendar Board – this one actually took two weeks because I had to order more ink and go back to the store to get more velcro and laminating paper.  I got the idea from HERE.4) Glazed Donut Muffins – HERE 

These were delicious! Enough said.

5) Pin the Tail on the Bunny (LINK – PS I love this website!) however – the project failed. Seemed simple enough but the Velcro was just too strong and the tails ripped off.

6) baptism FHE

7) Pound cake

I’ve made pound cake before but I wanted to try a new recipe. Recipe found here.

There may have been too much batter, or it was too fluffy, or the pan’s too small. So many options.

But it tasted delicious!

8) homemade guacamole

9) homemade Reese’s eggs

10) rice krispy Easter baskets

11) Wall signs


Family Photos

We finally took some family pictures. Matt doesn’t see what the big deal is with taking pictures while the babies are babies and I said, “as the sixth child who didn’t show up in family pictures until I was seven, I’m determined that none of my children go through the same thing.” So that’s why we do this and will continue to do it annually.


Light the World

I kind of knew when I started the 25 days of service that not every day would be blog worthy. What I’m trying to learn this year is to serve despite “ambition”. Serve even when it’s something small and also – recognize that small things are service.

On, one of the suggestions one day was to say nice things behind someone’s back…I would have never thought of that being an act of service. But it is nice that on the really busy days, I can still squeeze in a small act of service. I can donate, I can let someone know I’m thinking of them, I can smile at every person I pass in park (which I did, last Friday). I’m trying to break out of the mindset that service takes a lot of time or money. Although I’m still doing things that take time and money in addition, just not every day.

We’ve made and delivered Christmas cookies to a neighbor, we donated gift cards to our bishopric to give to members of our ward who may need them, bought Christmas stocking stuffers for the missionaries serving in our ward, made a donation to a children’s hospital, etc.

I’ve been trying to mix my service between community, ward, friends and family. I think the hardest to recognize and to do is with my immediate family, the ones I share a house with, the ones I’m always doing things for anyway so it feels like cheating if I use service to them one day.

Overall – it’s been a positive experience so far and I’ve been working on my list of service ideas to do throughout the year. I think I mentioned in the last post, I’m hoping to do one service project a month with Nicky. But hopefully I’ll also be able to teach him how to serve everyday by helping out the people closest to him.


No say me no

When my niece was little she used to say, “no say me no” which I think was her saying, “don’t tell me no”. I still use her phrase 12 years later. Nicky, has learned the word, “no” and it has made life a little more difficult and certain made every decision take longer. The video you are about to see is real, it’s not a re-enactment, these are not actors. This is a Wednesday morning and what every morning would be like if I actually let my toddler pick out what he wanted to wear instead of limiting his options to two shirts.

By the way – he ended up going with the “friend” shirt:


Fall into this update – see what I did there?

A lot has happened since my last post. At the beginning of October, I was released from my calling with the Young Women. For those of you unfamiliar with how callings work at my church, everything is volunteer. We receive a call from a member of the bishopric and then we serve for a number a years and then we are released. The Bishopric prays about who should fill what callings. A relief society president could become a primary teacher – it’s all based on inspiration and revelation.

I served with the young women for three and half years. We knew the release was coming, just not exactly the when. I got a heads up two weeks before and I didn’t take it well – LOTS of crying. But it was nice knowing in advance so I could just enjoy the time I had left with the girls. This basically sums up my feelings.

The Sunday I was released I was the one teaching- I gave a lesson of Gratitude…which I thought fitting, since I was sad but also very grateful to have had the opportunity to get to know the girls and be a part of their lives.

The next Sunday, I was asked to teach Relief Society the following week. I was beyond stressed. When I first left singles ward I thought being a relief society teacher would be a pretty sweet calling. But after years with the youth I was nervous about teaching adults again. I didn’t have much of an outline, just taught from a conference talk – no other guideline. It was awful! I asked a question and got absolutely NO response. I moved on and I was most of the way done with what I had prepared with 20-25 minutes left!! Luckily I asked a question that seemed to get people talking (or they finally took pity on me) and we only ended a few minutes early. The next week I got a calling to be a Relief Society teacher the second and fourth Sundays…so there’s that. They are changing the curriculum in January to be more the way the youth program is so I guess they thought I’d be a good fit since I already have experience with that. Oh and the YW President was called as the 1st counselor and so she’s still my “boss”- which helps me be more comfortable right off the bat.

Also at the beginning of October, my oldest nephew came for a weeklong visit, followed by a one day visit from his parents. So I was spending a lot of time in the West End with my family there.

Stormy/Nicky (Its easier just to use their real names) started “preschool”. It’s one day a week and they basically just play. But social skills are learning too and I already see a big improvement. Every couple of weeks I get to help out in the classroom and that’s more fun than I thought it would be.

Gertie/Izzy will be 6 months old next week! I can’t believe how fast time has gone. She’s at a really fun stage. Super cute, smiles all the time, and so curious about everything! She reaches for objects and is rolling over. We’ll be starting solids in the next week or so.

Chewy/Matt and I are in a weight loss competition with each other. Not really, but we are both losing weight and I’m very competitive. At first I wasn’t because I had so much extra, you know, having just had a baby. But over the last month or so I’ve really closed the gap. I still weigh more than my husband…but I’m only a few pounds away from him and my pre pregnancy weight.

Let’s see- what else. I’m still writing whenever I can and meeting with my writing group. I still take family photos and continue to work on my photography skills. Oh – and I’m making Nicky a new quiet book. We’re trying to be better about keeping him in the chapel during sacrament meeting – so I thought making a new quiet book might make it fun/easier. I’ll take pics when I’m done. So far it’s not too bad, as long as I don’t compare my work with my Pinterest inspirations of course.

That’s it for now. Here are some photos for making it all the way to the end!